since its holiday, i have nothing much to say, cause interesting activities are limited in my hometown. but i've been thinking about what i've left behind and what i'm gonna deal with for the rest of my life. it had been a long thought that i came up with a conclusion that i am pretty scared of whats waiting out there. i mean, after school. life as a kid is easy, when sex is no-no till our hearts catch up with our hormones, but still in advantages, there are other things we could do. after that, life changes, as far as i know, faster than we could ever imagine. its so fast, that i've a feeling that some of will not be ready at all. we are going to hold agains our tasks and responsibilities which will pile up over our strength. our quest for good choices will be easier back then, i guess. i just think sometimes its easier to our bad past which hurts us with its fangs and claws, rather than to expect our future without aim and prediction.